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Louise Stigell's avatar

This is a fantastic piece of writing. Thank you. 🙏🏻

I recognize myself in a lot of your experiences. Always been a tomboy and more comfortable around guys. Have never really known how to talk to, or hang out with girls, (unless they were as weird and nerdy as me.) Never liked "girly" clothes or activities. Would much rather play video games. And yes, I tore the barrettes out of my hair as a kid as well. Didn't make me any less female.

I relate so much to struggling with embracing one's femininity. I'm 38 and still working on that. It's not that I don't want to be a woman, or aren't proud to be. I just don't fit the stereotype very well. A stereotype that only seems to have grown stronger in recent years. It's like there's no room for nonconformity anymore. Instead, it's more black and white than ever. And scientifically proven biology is considered offensive. Which I find so strange. Only internalized sexism would find it offensive that men's and women's bodies and minds work differently. Have evolved differently over millennia. It doesn't make one "better" than the other. Just different.

And instead of celebrating each person's right to their own (fluid) individual expression (regardless of what's between their legs), we are more and more divided into ideological groups that we're forced to comply with. (Or to borrow your brilliant expression: building more cages for ourselves.)

All of this feels oddly dystopian to me, and it's something I read and think about a lot, despite not being personally affected by it. But I'm too scared to write about it at length. So I can't thank you enough for doing so, and for bringing more complexity and nuance to this discussion. It's desperately needed. (And makes me feel less alone.) 🖤

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Bowen Dwelle's avatar

Thank you so much for this clear, vulnerable, courageous, and insightful piece Anya. I've been studying and starting to write about gender from my own (male) point of view for the past year or so, and I've come to a lot of similar conclusions about masculinity. That is, that the advent of agriculture and industry served to greatly narrow both feminine and masculine roles, and that despite the power imbalance that came with patriarchy that has been, no doubt, in favor of men, that same patriarchal power structure served to diminish the value (and power) of both men and women. I also felt alienated from my own kind (men), and gravitated to women not only as lovers but as friends and role models.

I appreciate your point about how the nuclear family left many of us with a sole example of our own gender in the lone parent and how that exacerbated—or perhaps even led directly to—the very common feeling of "I am not you, I never want to become you, and I want to avoid anything that makes me feel associated with you"—and I do imagine that if I had had adult role male role models growing up aside from my father, that I wouldn't have felt so much the very same way, and wouldn't have alienated myself so much from him, for so very long. As so many men do.

Most of all I appreciate your expansive view of gender as one part of cultural expression, and I agree wholeheartedly that we are in a very necessary phase of explosion and redefinition of gender—and also that we are very much overcorrecting, and now in many cases further narrowing just as we are also beginning a great expansion of not-just-gender identity.

One book I've enjoyed a lot on this lately has been Grayson Perry's _The Descent of Man_. Another that comes to mind, not directly about gender at all but very much about the coming explosion of human identity in all sorts of shapes, is Bruce Sterling's classic sci-fi novella Schismatrix, published in _Schismatrix Plus_. This story often comes to mind after first reading it perhaps 30 years ago for the vivid descriptions of all sorts of varieties of people who are very much human while having also incorporated genetic and mechanistic modifications resulting in sub-species adapted for zero-gee flight in orbiting colonies, hitching rides in hard vacuum (the lobsters!), as well as various gender-bending and -multiplying varieties.

Personally, I've come to feel a lot of what Perry expresses in his book, that both masculinity and femininity are "a plurality," and "whatever you want it to be." I've been asking myself and others lately how their "femininity" or "masculinity" is different from their _individuality_, and if so, how? I do think that we carry an archetypal template that comes both from our biological sex and from a cultural inheritance of gender—and, that we can choose quite a lot of how we end up expressing gender as part of personal identity. Or at least be conscious of it. Or at least try. Because I also imagine that, of course, I show up as a man born in 1970, and that a lot of how I am will remain tied to that. I doubt that can do all that much evolving within my own lifetime—clearly, these changes are on a larger scale. I'm happy that the hard lines around gender are breaking down, and I remain a long-term optimist (certainly in part due to reading a lot of sci fi as a young person) while sharing your concern about where things stand in the near term.

A friend of mine suggested recently that the next time I, or you, or anyone is asked about their "pronouns," we respond that instead of preferring a particular gender-related pronoun, we would like to be referred to with a prefixing adjective, such as, who knows, "graceful," "stubborn," or perhaps "delicious," "majestic," "dynamic," or, some days, just "tired."

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